I've got nothing to do so I'd like to do this challenge. I'm going to compile all the question above for an entry only.

2. Things I like and dislike about myself ― I'm labeling myself as a kind open minded girl, everyone is okay to interact with me, everyone has to think I'm good enough and I think I need to spread positivity. I like that I'm capable in anything, there are a lot I can do. At the same time, I just CAN DO IT, not being the best in it. That's the thing I don't like about myself! I don't have so much confidence (because it's so hard to boost), and I do procrastinate all day. I'd rather to keep my problems alone until the time I can't handle and burst out all my emotion. Managing emotion is harder than managing time, and I'm still learning how to.

3. A quote you try to live by ― Actually, there are two different quotes but, the meaning is still interconnecting.

"The wind is rising! We must try to live." -Paul Valéry

"It may be hard, but as time passes by, you will get through it." -Hyunjin

It says like we desire to accept what it is, to live our life and just don't make it complicated. To validate the feeling when we think it's hard, it is. But we are here to live with it, not against it.

4. My views in religion ― Religion made for purpose. Religion made not for inconvenient the life, it's there to make our life easier. To worship with heart, to worship with all our feelings, to worship with IKHLAS, it'd be peace upon our life :)

5. My basic life principle ― You don't have to do anything perfectly, not because you can't do it. It's just how the world works. Don't force yourself too hard and just do it. KEEP GROWING.

6. Write a letter to someone, anyone ― I should've known since the first that you don't want me fully for your heart. You are the reason why I lost myself. The thing that I can't let it happen, losing myself, but then I did it and it's all because of YOU. You should know that I've been through a lot. No, you already know, but you pretend like you don't know, right? Why? Why are you trying to use me? Why are you always blame me for things I never did? Why you gaslighted me to let you cheat and chitchat shit behind my back and how you made me think that it was all normal thing to do while it is not? Why? WHY? I suffered for minutes, hours, days, months, even years... just to know WHY? YOU? DID? THAT? TO? ME?

7. Someone who fascinates you, and why ― Christopher Bang, I guess? He could manage all the schedules, to make music, to workout, to handle things in group, to being a father, to being a big brother, to being a baby to us! 

8. My proudest moment ― Absolutely can't mention it all in here, but I got a trophy for winning 1st place in FLS2N 2016! I made it until win to every competition I joined every year. From the 1st until 3rd it doesn't matter as long as I did it with all my hardwork. I could manage to be artsy kid by taking FLS2N until highschool, design digital poster and digital comic, poem reading competition, batik making competition, "hasta karya" competition, yet still speech and storytelling competition? I also can be sporty at the same time by taking athletic (mostly 100 meters run) for O2SN. Also, being so medical by taking dokter cilik competition, and joining PMR? And making money as a design freelancer...? How I  couldn't be proud of myself? 

9. One of my favorite TV show ― EVERYTHING that showed before I went to school in the morning... Dora The Explorer, SpongeBob, and Chalk Zone. There are also some of them in the evening SpaceToon, like Code Lyoko, Magic School Bus, Minky Momo, Ninja Hatori, Ellen, etc. If I have to choose one, maybe it's Code Lyoko<3 Super fun to watch!

10. How have I changed in past 2 years? ― I don't have another hopes anyways... maybe I want to make money by myself and the rest just please let it be good and easier for me.

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